Friday, October 17, 2008

The Reasons...

okay..why i resigned & felt that the job was not worth it..well, here goes..many people would think that i'm a spoil brat & can't handle the pressure & stress..but i honestly don't care!!! if people had to go through what i did & feel/think from my point of view, some would or wouldn't understand it..totally up to any one's thoughts..i should let people try to be in my shoes for that 12days i worked..

hmmm, reasons for quitting my 1st full time job;

1) the working hours are insane!!! i have to be at the office before 8am for the meeting & whatever else laa kan..which usually last until 10 or 1015am..then head off to whichever site/working place for that particular week..prepare everything then have a 30min early lunch..then work till 8 or 9pm..as far as i remember, 1st few days i finished at 730pm..the latest i have reached home is 1040pm!!!

i only take a few 5-10mins break..only 3 or 4 times i got to eat a very late lunch/early dinner which last about 20mins or so..ok, so from my point = work starts at 8am till 830pm/9pm..monday to saturday..u do the math..but i haven't worked on sundays before, lucky me, hahaha ;p


**[forgot to mention that i do sales & marketing at shopping malls, i don't sell things or credit cards, mind u, but i have to get people to sign up as members with wwf - world wildlife fund - which was ok with me coz it's charity k, that's one of the reasons why i took the job]**

2) my health was quickly affected..not juz because of the long working hours but also the journey from my house to office (morning takes an hour, while at night is 45mins)..the real deal is my legs & back..why? coz i stand all the time..starting from the second i arrive at the office..the meetings are held in a big room where everyone stands..yes, we stand, not sit on chairs or on the floor or lean against the wall/table..imagine that..for 2hrs!!

then after the early lunch, we usually start work around 11am nonstop till the end of the day..i even stand during my short breaks!! well, sometimes i sit tho, hehehe..[yelah, i only get like 5-10mins for a quick puff & if the place has a place to sit i'm lucky]..sometimes i don't eat at all, juz drink [i must make sure my early lunch can keep me full till night]..

& we can't sit at the booth to rest our feet coz it's the company's so-called system/policy/whatever bullshit..u know like having a good impression, not slacking on the job, have to show discipline to customers & bla bla bla, not wanting us employees look like those credit card people (no offense k, that was stated as an example by my employers)..seriously, i stand on my 2 "steel" legs for a total of [plus minus] = 11hrs every fucking day i work!!!

by the 3rd day, my backbone was juz crying out for some mercy..it felt like it was gonna snap anytime i make a drastic movement!! my feet were numb & the soles were sooo red & sore, everyday it was bengkak k..i was really concerned about the long term effect, no matter how many litre of anlene milk & tons of supplement i take, it will surely not be enough..

i think if i didn't resign, in a month i could have killed my bones & nerves!!! plus i would be walking weirdly, ouch!!! when i started to have a fever, it was the final call to 'quit'..sooo not worth being sick & the possibility of destroying my bones!!!


3) i didn't agree with the company's policy/system of sales..at 1st, it didn't really bother me coz i had never had an issue regarding it..but when i did, it totally pissed me off!!! ok so, the sales goes to however said hello 1st to the client/customer/person, which means that if u said hello 1st but that 'customer' ignores u but then i got to chat up with that 'customer' & get him/her to sign up, it won't be my sale, it's yours..even if i was the one who did all the 'work/sweet talking/persuading'..u think it's fair??? u tell me!!

i didn't want to create a scene (means start a fight, we were already arguing a bit tho), but since i'm the newbie & the person who i 'ripped off' was a senior, i juz handed it over..so that senior got the commission for free, without a 'thank u' to me..geeesh!!!

it's totally logic that it should have been my sale coz i was able to have that 'customer' sign up..right??? don't u think it's a damn stupid policy?!?! why should u get it when your tactics were not effective?!? really made me angry!! it was crazy!! i became crazy..u know why that senior was also crazy for that 1 sale??? next reason will tell u why...

***btw, this is really a long story!! like i said, i blog like i'm talking!!! sooo, to be continue..***

Thursday, October 16, 2008

The Job - The Beginning & End..

i noticed that i never did write down what job i got..well, job title = management trainee..started work 22nd sept..& after 3weeks (ohhh don't forget including the 1week raya holiday), i decided to resign!!! i officially signed the termination letter on monday (13th oct)...yes, believe it or not..it wasn't something that i simply & unexpectedly did, i put a lot of thinking & feeling into that decision..ohhh & also rational logic reasons k.. ;p

the job scope wasn't what i had really expected..but i was willing to try & challenge myself..like the title said "management trainee"..but i had to go through stage #1, where i had to do sales & marketing! hahaha, unbelievable u know..sooo, after a week of hard work & tons of emotional baggage, i managed to get promoted to stage #2, where i was a leader [this is when i was trained to be a leader, it's like developing the skills & knowledge]..

then on that thursday morning (9th oct), i was told to prepare myself for a test the next day..it meant that i got promoted to stage #3 - team leader..the funny thing was, i wasn't excited at all..only felt great for a minute then i was like "hmmm, whatever!"..sounds crazy right???

i know i should have been proud & happy..that was when my heart just said "quit! not worth it"..i was already writing the pros & cons of the job..the cons was way longer than the pros! trust me, i couldn't find many reasons to stay with the job/company..

friday wasn't that great coz i woke up with a fever..but being dumb & all, i still went to work..went through the test - oral/interview style..hahaha, moi passed it with flying colours..everyone was congratulating me while i just smiled sheepishly & said thank u..i pretended to be excited about the promotion..i mean if other people, they would definitely jump up & down!!!

well, i only worked till 4pm coz i was really dizzy & my fever made me hot & sweaty..not the dirty version k, hahaha!!! ;p ..i took saturday & sunday off..yes, sunday was the day we had training for the new project..believe it k!!

honestly, that friday on the way home, i felt like a gigantic lorry just ran me over & realization hit me squarely on my forehead..i had already planned to tell my boss on monday morning that tuesday (14th oct) was my last day working & i would not come to work again on wednesday..

but that monday after i told my boss, something unbelievable happened..that's another story..plus why i quit the job ;p

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

My Belated Wish..

i know raya is half way through but it's still not too late to wish selamat hari raya aidilfitri, maaf zahir & batin to my friends & whoever is celebrating raya..this raya was a bit slow, the spirit was kinda low..it wasn't that fun as the year before..maybe coz i wasn't sooo into the preparation & all..it was hard managing work & my personal life (family, friends & myself)..

i was lucky to get a whole week off from work..but i still went to work on monday tho (29th sept)..it was the best week i had..which means quality time with family & precious moments to relax..kinda felt like i was in heaven, hahaha!!! now i understand why working people always say that students are lucky & have the best life ;p

this year, i celebrated raya in kl/selangor..my parents came here & spent 3weeks with me & cma..i think this is the 3rd raya cna isn't with us..maybe in 2010 she'll complete the family celebration..

hmmm, 1st day of raya was nice & relaxing..had my cousins & niece (my mum's side, staying in shah alam), & my dad's old friend from the uni years, come over for lunch..i think we had ketupat, rendang kismis, ayam masak merah, rice & acar..very simple menu, nothing over the top..i didn't invite any of my friends coz my house is kinda small to gather lots of people at the same time [i'm staying in a low rise apartment k]..but maybe i might have an open house for my friends, if i rajin cook laa, hehehe ;p

well, 3weeks has gone by..a lot has happened..a lot to tell.. :) ..
i can't believe i totally ignored my blog..how ignorant & thoughtless of me!! ohhh..it's never too late to start again ;)