'Freaking Lazy' OR 'Juz Feeling Pathetic' ?!?

why the hell am i sooo lazy??? got lots of things i wanna story-mory; as a future reference of my life! hehehe ;) ..but i'm sooo freaking lazy lazy lazy..man, i need 2 downgrade my laziness soon!!! okay laa..will update wen i'm in the mood, coz actually i'm not in a gud mood now!!! VERY moody!!! i feel like i wanna slash/stab/strangle someone, or maybe i could juz yell/scream till i burst my own eardrums, or maybe i should juz punch my pillows or the wall??? hmmm, or maybe i should juz ponder silently about my pathetic L**E life...geez, another depressing moment!!! i juz wish i was HEARTLESS :'(