i've been feeling restless since yesterday afternoon, having dis uneasy feeling in my heart, my instinct is like telling me something unpleasant is gonna happen 2 me or something not good is going on dat will affect me..i dont know!!! dis is driving me crazy, really crazy & confuse..i've been sooo moody, cant concentrate on my work, had no mood 2 talk 2 anyone, felt like lashing out, my mind is disoriented & my heart is juz pumping harder..the worst part is trying 2 sort it out with no idea wat's the source..i tried 2 ignore it by doing some house chores, laundry, thesis & watever dat will distract me from trying 2 figure out dis so-called uneasy gut feeling..i honestly cant pinpoint wat or who is giving me this uneasiness..i thot it was juz a passing dilemma or dat my instinct is juz haywire, but it's still going on right now!!!
until i know or watever happens then it'll juz stop, coz i've already gone thru dis cycle of instinct/moment b4..i hate dis..been thru it a few times & the events were all unpleasant unhappy, wit me ending up crying angry frustrated sad & all those bad emotions, almost all of the events had been about my personal life..there MUST be a reason 4 me 2 have dis sign at dis moment..all i've been doing is pray 2 god 2 juz let me have it right now coz i really wanna get it over wit..i need 2 relax & focus on my preparation 4 thesis presentation, 2 get my powerpoint completed & 2 do some reading on the topic..arghhh!!! but then again dat wouldnt be a good idea coz surely i'll dwell on the matter & the effect is gonna stay 4 quite a long time...ohhh, why cant i juz feel dis after i've completed my thesis?!?!
~ plz god, let me settle important matters 1st witout dis obstacle/challenge..wen i'm done, then let it be, i'll juz accept watever it is... ~ :(
until i know or watever happens then it'll juz stop, coz i've already gone thru dis cycle of instinct/moment b4..i hate dis..been thru it a few times & the events were all unpleasant unhappy, wit me ending up crying angry frustrated sad & all those bad emotions, almost all of the events had been about my personal life..there MUST be a reason 4 me 2 have dis sign at dis moment..all i've been doing is pray 2 god 2 juz let me have it right now coz i really wanna get it over wit..i need 2 relax & focus on my preparation 4 thesis presentation, 2 get my powerpoint completed & 2 do some reading on the topic..arghhh!!! but then again dat wouldnt be a good idea coz surely i'll dwell on the matter & the effect is gonna stay 4 quite a long time...ohhh, why cant i juz feel dis after i've completed my thesis?!?!
~ plz god, let me settle important matters 1st witout dis obstacle/challenge..wen i'm done, then let it be, i'll juz accept watever it is... ~ :(
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